I would encourage you to go to a Dr. first get your hormones checked out. FInd a cool dr. / urologist you can be honest with, tell him what you want to do and accomplish physically and see if he'll work with you or refer you onto someone who is willing, and see how it goes man. Just my opinion, if you've struggled with dependancy and drugs its a real possibility you could get carried away with gear. Just my 2 pennies bro, always good to have accountability.
(and perhaps cut back on the running a bit if you want greater lifting results)
poonappI can get these really cheap but have not tried them because I cannot find any reliable reviews about them yet.
Please keep us updated.
I would encourage you to go to a Dr. first get your hormones checked out. FInd a cool dr. / urologist you can be honest with, tell him what you want to do and accomplish physically and see if he'll work with you or refer you onto someone who is willing, and see how it goes man. Just my opinion, if you've struggled with dependancy and drugs its a real possibility you could get carried away with gear. Just my 2 pennies bro, always good to have accountability.
(and perhaps cut back on the running a bit if you want greater lifting results)