Hi I just join the site i what u call ..dummie ,,,nubie...im starting by apologizing for my bad english is not my lenguaje ill try to be as clear as posible.

In 2011 i was 310lbs size 42 in pants my man boobs where huge like its ben al off my chillhood after geting lab tests my Total testosterone was 306ng/dL ...i started a diet low carb low calorie....i manage to drop 90lbs in 4 months whith just diet and over the counter pills....after i fell the difence and decide to join the gym i lost more weigth till i hit 189lbs....

then i star my first cycle 50mg of winstrol for 50 days no pct no labs....ignoring for complete from where or what it was going to do to my body....but i fell strong and tranform my body and i felt even better but i start to notice my ED to be more and more constant....i wait 4 monts and did it again exact same cycle no pct no labs......my ED was the same bad but i was able to have erections ...and in the search of more i came across "T400" and star a cycle 400mg a week of test and 200mg deca a week no anti estrogens and no pct no labs......after my cycle ends thats wen i hit the floor.....i did not get an ereccion for months.....and wen i did it was with help from another blue pill....then i start to read and read and read again....i try to edacute my self of what was happening to me...so I stop the juice and focus on naturally bring back my "T" i toke me abouth a year to recover fully....i never abandone the 5 day a week workout and eating clean then i return to the juice this time a bit more educated....

dbol 50mg ed for 4 weeks and test e 500 mg a week...tren ace 200mg a week....exemastane 12.5 ed for 12 weeks and 4 weeks extra on exemastane as a pct....let me tell you i felt like i never felt before....i was able to see my abs :-)....my life dream come true for the first time....then....... the crash....i guess the word SUPPRESSION did not raise any flags on me my fault..... i felt completelly the oposite
so depress i thought about killing my self ever since i have try to boost my "T"naturally or with over the counter stuff...DAA...ZMA all kinds of pills and powders and the only thing i boost y my liver enzymes
to 3 times the normal level...so after a year clean of unknown pills a powders i decide to visit a doctor the another and another doctor and finally this doc did some labs, and refere me to a endocrinologyst which happens to tag me as steroid abuser...after a bit of confrontation he agree to hrt but only once enery 3 weeks at the office (very inconvinient for the distance to my house )or androgel,, i refuse bouth ,,we agree on a revision of my case after 4 weeks on clomid ed @50mg....since i know my body better then him i did include 25mg of nolvadex ed....so thats where i am today....im able to have an poor erection maybe twice a week in the morning only after a well rest nigth and th libido is none existing..:-(.. i need an advice on whats next.....he is telling me is going to take a minimun of 7 months before i see any improvements of any .....i dont think is going to go for hrt... how can i bring my "T" up to good levels? what protocol you recomend? frecuency? what type of anti estrogen? if any......i will love to be able to incorporate some tren if posible every now and then to my hrt......the benefits and changes in my life with tren are undeniables.....

im a very positive person ill take any help positive a negative is ok....i need to save my marriage from the lack libido and the ED....and in the process heve a better life quality....thanks in advance every one