Yes I am new here with my piss ass +5 score but have 35 years in the gym and 25 years riding what used to be the roller coaster of on/off. Getting big and staying on forever is sort of an option but not the road I take. Nothing more fucked up than someone saying "you got small".

The trick here is to learn how to cycle and PCT properly and not ruin your liver, kidneys and brain. Not swell up with water and pound your heart into mush only to come off and shrink down.

I trained for 10 years before my first Test C 6 week run. from what I 've seen in dozens of gyms over 30 years is the guys that "set" a foundation before they hit the shit are the MF'ers that have "the look". There are always those exceptions I just never felt I was some special being.......lol

Go slow, do less not more, run simple until you figure out what works.