Hello-

Its been a long tough road filled with discrimination and roller coasters to get to the point I am at.

I started gear when I was 19 because my "General Doctor" prescribed me 200mg test cyp ever 4 weeks. I had a level of 190 and his explanation was because I smoked Pot when I was a young teenager my "Gonads" No longer produce properly.

I didn't go back after the second injection. I was young and didn't know what the hell was going on. 4 years later I tried to get back on and because my levels reach 250 he concluded that I no longer needed TRT and that my levels are within range. I never fucked around with any hormones at this point in my life.

My problem comes from ceribrial fluid entering the part of the brain that the pituitary gland sits and crushing it due to pressure.. Its a rare condition but I will explain how I found out about it later. First I am never going to produce test at a level higher then 250. @ 250 that is probably my morning level which drops to 120 during the day.

After finding this out I concluded that a great misdeed had been done to me due to the lack of MRI/Igf1/cortisol/prolactin blood tests. This is elementary grade year 1 med school if not something that a vocational nursing school could teach you. It took me 2 years from 2011 with a G.E.D education (Went to military school) to figure this who HPTA endocrine system. So by the time I went to my first endo in july of 2013 I had a strong head on my shoulder. He told me he wanted to do a clomid restart like one would pct. My level jumped up and fell back when I came off.

Immediately when he stated he wanted to put me on clomid I asked if I could go on arimedex because it has less side effects. I was not as educated as I am now and we all know anti-e vs Reuptake modulators do completely different things. He amazingly agreed. Which proved his incompetence as a endo and nothing more then a diabetic specialist posing. I demanded a MRI because I said there has to be a reason that this is happening. He stated "There is a 1% chance you will find anything" Boy was he wrong. I did not find any tumors but there was 5% of a pituitary gland in the MRI. He called me back and stated I have empty sella syndrome. I asked him to cut the crap with clomid after researching this syndrome and he denied me TRT because of my ability to have kids would be affected and I would be on trt for life.

In the mean time - while waiting for insurance to send me to 2 different endo's....

I ried 12.5 mg e3d of clomid which led to great improvements but the emotional side effects of the antagonist estrogen part of clomid made me crazy. So that led me to believing that my depression and lack of energy where testosterone related.

As of January this year I finally got the the 3rd endo and within 5 minutes I was on anastrozole and 100mg weekly. GREAT?! Well it gets more interesting.

During this frustration I had in been trying to go UGL because of my discrimination of my age. Since December I had suffered from extreme pip from even the smallest amount. Homebrew or Lab It didn't matter. Everything was spot on sterile and location correct. How do you fuck up a delt shot I said. So I hit the forums ... It led me to Sub-Q which finally found me relief. I am now able to hit 1cc per site and changing my life. I am working on diet and have a sick amino stack ... Now that I am here I hope to learn as much about Training And Diet as possible because even though I don't have as much experience in gear due to my struggles I have a great and deep respect for it. I hope to help bring sub q to light due to the lack of information out there or personal experience.

Thank You for this site.