I also regret that I didn't start AAS sooner. I'm serious too.

And the answer to your original question is NO. I'm 100% better since I've started using exogenous hormones and the various ancillaries. I waited a long while before I decided to juice. If it wasn't for TRT I may never have used gear. I was started on a TRT protocol at 32 years old due to very low test levels from years of continued opiate abuse. The TRT protocol, while far from optimal IMO turned my life around 180 degrees and gave me a quality of life again. I was starting to see a noticeable difference in my physique and strength level just from the 200mg E2W scrip I was given. So I did lots of reading, lurking, asking, learning and decided to try out a blast and cruise. The rest is history so to speak. I LOVE roids and if used safely can transform your life like they did mine. I'm just getting warmed up. ;)

Yes. I think it's a mistake. I turn 35 in 2 weeks, and did my first cycle almost 2 years ago. I've done 4 shorter cycles since then, 3 with tren. I look great, but I fear for what it has done to me. Mostly, it has to do with having met a really great woman, and my biggest concern is reduced fertility. I've never been particularly obsessed with sex, but it's always been VERY hard to get aroused during off times. I've made some mistakes with my cycles, i.e. I never got blood work done and always just waited until I felt ok. I live in New York State, and it's impossible to get tests done without an rx.

Tren, I don't know. When I first did research, it seemed most people warned against the sides. I could handle them, but the more I read the more I fear I've fucked myself up for life. These boards drive me crazy, honestly. There is so much contradictory information, and they are filled with people who have problems. I keep telling myself that most people don't have problems, and hence don't bother posting. So I shouldn't worry.

I've decided going forward, I'm going to quite using. I don't want to harm my HPTA any further. I really don't want to get on TRT therapy, and quite frankly I'm tired of body building. I've gotten jacked, but it really hasn't done that much for my life and I increasingly don't have the time to properly workout.

My plan is to do a solid PCT for 6-8 weeks, get my blood tested in 3 months, and hope for the best. My ideal conclusion to this experiment would be to just be a normal office guy who mostly runs with some light weight lifting to stay toned. I hope I don't have any sexual dysfunction, and end up with a normal healthy relationship that results in children that I conceive naturally.

I wish there were more positive stories of people quitting steroids and moving on with their lives, but they are few and far between. All you got are guys who never recovered, and it's actually kind of scary at times. I know I've been obsessing about it endlessly lately.