I was a competing athlete through and after college. Like a retard I've been taking orals since I was 15 yrs old until 5 years ago (I'm 31) I know how utterly stupid it was and until I stopped had no real bad side effects. The problem was I threw a 90+ mph fastball by the time I was 14 and this would have me playing on teams with kids 3 years ahead of me and back in the early 90's you could have the older football players buying testosterone at GNC. Not animal stack but legit test off the 1st receptor, the real deal. We were kids and very irresponsible. We also had state record breaking power lifters and all state Everything in our crew so it' was an ugly cycle, no pun. I took my first pin at 21 and went 3 years with no pct. this made me suicidal for a month but really scary for the first couple weeks off. I cycled on and off but mostly on for 2 more years. If I could I would take it all back, this is not one of those "I don't regret it and I'm stronger because of it things". A knee injury is what finally stoped my training with a pro fight team out of San Diego and a 4 year prescription pain killer addiction followed. I've done a lot of hard work and I've been sober a year minus the can of chew I go threw a day (some people consider nicotine a drug which it is but im getting off topic) This was the condensed version of my fucked up history with drugs.
I'm aware that everyone is going to say doctor and levels first but I can tell you they are at the level of a 60 yr old grandma. My girl went down on me just yesterday and rolled a twizzler around in her mouth before stopping with an look on her face. It was a look in between guilt and anger. I'm so f'd up she's having more wet dreams then me cuz I don't touch her
So Lets just assume that the Doc is out the window (for now) and I'm Consulting with people I feel have a better understanding how test actually works within their own body because of experience. You guys. Please don't blast or say I'm being irresponsible because I feel with my experience and current weight It isn't the worst idea and spending the money on a doc tells me what I all ready know, leaves me with no money to buy sups for another month. keep in mind My injurys have left me with no coverage so I can't simply drop a co pay and keep it moving.
So for shits and giggles please help...
If I wanted to do a 4-6 month plan on my own to see if I can rebound my levels and get me back into a God, family and gym first lifestyle. Before considering having my levels checked. Then what would you recommend and thanks for the feedback.

Do I just go to a doctor and ask for my test level or a blood test? And how much are those? I've gone through restoration. I've gone through restoration periods and taken a few months off But never had this type of trouble getting back into a routine and The only way I can explain it is very very low ambition and zero drive coupled with no sex drive I'm thinking a cycle with very good PCT might get my resting levels if you want to call it that back to normal. Even 90 days of weight training should cause my body to increase testosterone levels naturally. This knee injury when it happened I only thought I would be out most 10 months it's caused me to be out five years.