First of all I am here to say I have fucked up. I have fucked up in more ways than one pissed off a lot of people along the way. I want to take this moment to APOLOGIZE to all I have ever offended pissed off and unnecessarily called out. Secondly I would like to tell you all a litttle bit about myself so you can maybe understand where I am coming from. I have a rare Auto-Immune Disease called Evans Syndrome. It is a rare disease that has had my Dr. prescribing me Anadrol at 200mg per day for 6 weeks while I was in the ICU with a Hemoglobin of 2. My heart had crashed from not receiving enough oxygen. I died. I was brought back by a Defibrilatior and placed back on life support. This happened 2 days after I had started the Anadrol for the first time in the 10th grade my sophomore year of high school. For those of you that may or may not know AAS is prescribed to treat certain medical conditions. I have what is called Evans Syndrome. The FDA has approved Anabolic Steroids for the use of treating even curing low blood counts. ONE WEEK after dieing my hemoglobin went from 2 to 8 in just 4 days at 200mg per day!!! We all know Anadrol and certain other orals increase red blood cells so this became a miracle drug! I was also prescribed 150mg per week of Nandralone which we all know as Deca. It too has the medical ability to strengthen and add to the length of life for the red blood cells and platelets. In Evans Syndrome the B cells and T cells destroy platelets and red blood cells for no reason.

Now onto the main reason for writing this is to apologize for what arrogance I displayed and for the disrespect to any mod or advanced member who did provide good legitimate advice. I understand that respect for me wont just happen over night but I hope that this apology will be a step in the right direction.

In my defense. Viking Power had given and suggested a diet for me to increase calories and help me lose weight. I got bashed for posting progess pics harassed and unjustly negged and made fun of. Why would you make fun of someone who sought help from a mod or professional on this site to better him or herself? No effing reason for it. THAT is what pissed me off and started that semi-destructive path. I HAVE BEEN AAS FREE SINCE MARCH 2ND FOLLOWING A PERFECT PCT losing 16lbs that cycle and still keeping it all off. Was it dumb? should I have waited? should I have done that NATURALLY? YES TO ALL! I have made a lot of mistakes here on eroids yes I've come a long ways and have a lot to be proud of but I should have listened to ALL of you who told me it could have been done NATURALLY. I plan to drop another 20lbs and be 15-16% body fat by the time the EBC starts if I do not reach this goal it is likely I will withdraw from the EBC and wait for the next one.

NOW if any of you have PROFESSIONAL criticism and would like to post below please do I WELCOME IT and am prepared to LISTEN. I have learned that those pros on this forum that I have listened to in the past and most recently Pmob Viking Monk and Sumatra Triangle as well as Rusty I have succeeded more than I expected. If you are going to say something negative about a post, cycle or goal of mine PLEASE don't just -1 me and actually explain why disagree or why it should be done differently.

As for the -1s I had 408 karma the other morning and in less than 24 hours it dropped to 398 now I know if the mods reduce karma they tell you that you fucked up. This just tells me that people don't want to see me at the ADV rank that they're just negging and -1 because they want to without reason.

I have manned up and APOLOGIZED. I do not ask for your trust right away but I would like to ask for your respect. Not to toot my own horn but I had a message returned to me a while back of someone I had offended saying it takes a big man to step up and apologize. In the next day or so I will be posting my current diet and goals for CRITIQUE. I would like and appreciate as much professional criticism as possible

Thank you all so much for taking the time to read my apology and for those of you that respond I thank you for your time as well! God bless eroids!