First of all, holy shit. I assumed you were older. You are a fucking jacked 24 year old! LOL. I could only dream of having your problem of losing gains and still looking like that!

Your post reminds me of exactly what I was feeling during PCT. I felt like it was all for nothing. I noticed my body got very thick on cycle and then slowly started shrinking and not looking as thick. I see more definition but I loved the thickness I had. That made me feel like I needed to be on TRT and that I would actually enjoy TRT but as everyone has said, long term, why not prolong it as long as possible.

Anything can change a day, week, and years from now that might force you to look back and say "I wish I never started TRT" I'm nearing 38 and to be honest, I kinda still want to pursue TRT because I truly feel I had/have natural low T levels. It explains a lot over my years of feeling the way I have. For 3 months I had become a different person. However, I'm going to hold on that thought and see how recovery goes. I have a kid. If I don't have another soon I'm going to be done because I don't want to be 60 raising a 15 year old. lol. Also, I worry about having to deal with doctors for the rest of my life for something like this. Doctors are a fact of life but the expense and change of doctor philosophy by suddenly saying "no more TRT for you"

You are still young, wait it out as long as possible. This is a short term thing you are feeling, TRT is not.

You're correct, I think you're crazy. Bro, you're likely not even at peak natty test production which isn't until approximately age 25. You're tired of PCT? It's a blessing... trust. Losing mass during PCT is a very small price to pay versus permanently destroying your natty test... for the rest of your life. See Greg's post below. It's about as good as it gets as far as TRT advise.

I think you will regret in the long run. I bet there are guys on TRT who would literally give their left nut not to have to be on TRT. Ride your natural levels out and when you become a dinosaur and have to be on TRT you'll know you made the right decision in the long run.

Do you know that the way I deal with getting older is to count a score (20 years) as 1 life lived. So I'm 2 score and 14.

Why is this relevant? I've lived over 2 and a half times your life. I've seen and done things I never imagined or expected. I've been homeless living out of my car. And I've owned a company that grossed over 1 million a year. I look forward and see that I still have (potentially) 60 more years -3 more lives!

You have no idea what life will throw at you in the next 100 years. How will you buy gear when you are down on your luck? what if technology and laws change where it is impossible to get?

What if they come up with a new product 100% safe FDA approved and just like steroids? But, you already "castrated" yourself.

What you suggest is like impatiently getting a tattoo of a goat riding a rainbow above your pubic area... then realizing after the fact --when it's too late, what a bad idea that was.

Trust me, I know.