Just touching base look forward to continuing this relationship in the new year
Everyone have a wonderful New Year holiday and I hope this year is filled with progress toward all our life goals inside and out of the gym
I only want to see success for Kodiak as they have been a very important part of my success
I was struck with a sudden and severe complication from an illness this past year being hospitalized for over one week , two separate time s
I suffered from gastro paresis (paralyzed stomach) went from my normal weight of 160 lbs to just shy of 140 lbs in a matter of months!!!
Needless to say I was very sick and I was suffering from wasting syndrome
I was dying and my body was doing all it could to survive unable to eat and process nutrition
It was a huge change to me as I have previously been healthy and to be fed through an IV for days and days when all you want to do is go to work and eat lunch with your friends and family but you can't leave a bed because your strapped to an IV pole 24/7
I learnt to be thankful from this
I learned that being able to eat a sandwich and chips an walk to the mailbox was a great luxury and should be treated as such
Bc when your on your back and the doctors say they have done all they can and to just wait
Then basic things become so very important and you realize just how much your boring everyday life is rather nice and what you would give o go back
Long very long story short after a final stay in ICU undergoing aggressive therapy my wish was granted and my stomach woke up an slowly I started to eat again
Only yogurts and broth to soft foods to more food s and so on this past year
I had a filet steak a few days ago and am now on a 4000cal bulk diet since late September
God it feels good!

After building up my strength and getting my diet inline and able to train
I built myself up to 150 lbs within three weeks of the final ICU experience with diet alone as my body had muscle memory and strived to get to my original weight as quickly and healthy as possible !!!
I preped myself for approx two months to be able to commit to a basic test E based cycle which started on November 1st 2012

Well I have to say THANK YOU to AK and to myself for continuing on when at times I thought I could no longer do so; I put my feet to the ground and moved forward with all the power I could; I wanted my life back and nothing short of death was or will stop me!

I have practiced high intensity training my whole adult life and always have been previously physically fit , I also practice Thai boxing!
So in my mind set and self esteem being small and weak was almost as hard as the physical conditions my body was put through !

I now today feel strong and healthy and have my body back to a good form;
I am approx 175 lbs now , carry almost no water and besides some oily skin and slight acne , both of which have now resided once I dropped off my daily 100mg of prop and am currently at 600mg Test E only now !
At week 8 I weigh 175 , readers do you realize what that means to me???

I told myself I must gain weight naturally before I was to start my cycle
In which I did ...In September I was 140 lbs the sickest I have ever been ( normal healthy weight 160)
I started this cycle on Nov 1 @ 155lbs a natural increase of approx 12lbs within two months , diet alone !
I can not describe this past situation I have been through and describe what it feels like to be strong and healthy again at a normal mans weight of 175 !

All my doctors and family are beyond thrilled as they watched me almost lose my life and solider through it to success!
Jesus and I mean really Jesus sees the actions of the people that have helped me and its a blessing to have them
A part of this team As I know them as Grrrlll and gothic but that is an image for the people of Kodiak !
I love you guys and girls !
You have helped give me my body back and I will never forget it either
My cycle is
Diet approx 3500-5000cals a day ( I do the best I can, the more the merrier!)

1-6 test prop @50-100mg ED
1-14 test E @5-600 EW
14-16 test prop @50-100 ED
Aromasin as needed throughout
Standard Clomid Nolva Aro four week pct

Goth,
I need a ride home from Taco bell tonight and it's been a long time since we've partied. We should get together.
Penicillin finally cleared that thingy up that I had so I'm good to go.
Call me,
Ed.

Hey, I placed an order last night got confirmation email about order but have never received any email or instructions on how to make donation. Help appreciated!

Merry new year- Goth and Grrrl! I was a bit late to say merry Xmas - so this is all inclusive! Lol.

OMG!!! I am AMAZED at my progress on Kodiak's products, and I'm so glad to call myself a friend of these guys. 25 pound increase in the last 90 days and I have people at the gym asking questions------ones I think they already know the answer to....ha ha.
Happy Holidays everyone!

By pm...everyone is liking the no pip gear! Great work!