I have said before their is a sense of freedom that comes from written our wrongs. But I know that their is also a sense of being hurt in the way people have either overlooked or acted towards me in my active addiction.. I think we find out that we can't do all this the first time in doing the steps what I mean in our first round of working thru the step their is going to damage not corrected or righted... that why we keep on working thru the steps over and over because it gives us a chance to approach the steps in different preoperative each time because as we grow day by day year by year we mature in recovery so for the fist time I worked the step I thought in that moment I did a hell of a job but I soon realized in reworking the step with more clean time under my belt my first pass was surface deep.. it. Wasn't until the second pass that it starting becoming more spiritual in nature.. my preoperative had changed things where a lot more I really want to get to the bottom on why I really use and what really are my triggers and why and how serent thing make me feel a serent way... finally how I can get out from under these feelings of shame and guilt