sorry i never feel threatened because i am relaxed. i will edit my pics next time from another program sorry again

Ok so here goes my updates first.
Aggression is wwaayyy up in the gym and at work. I feel very alpha male around all men. Like i could smash there fing faces in easily lol. I have the biggest appetite i have had since getting diagnosed. Im holding a ton of weight even though i have problems sometimes with nausea from upset stomach. Weight is still slowly climbing. I may order some masteron from Viking since i didnt win it. I want to finish my cycle off strong. And I do have full bloated muscles right now.

Lifts
bent over rows inverted grip
2x135x15
1x225x15
1x295x5
1x295x5
1x225x5

barbell curls
1x65x20
1x85x15
1x105x5
1x105x5
1x85x8 (gave it all i had)

vbar rows
4x200x8

hammer curls
3x40x5

behind neck pullups
3x3-6 body weight

overhead dumbell extensions (tris) both hands
1x40x35
2x60x15

overhead dumbell extensions (focused on lats)
1x40x20
1x60x10

one arm flat DB skullcrushers
1x20x20
3x40x5

incline curl machine
2x110x5
1x95x3

overhead rope extensions
1x80x15
2x120x5
1x120x4

single arm cable curls
1x35x10

I will post my lifts i thought were decent this week

Chest and shoulders
Incline Db press
1x40x35
1x55x20
1x65x17
1x95x6 <<<<< heaviest ive done since i started back up

standing db shoulder press
3x40x15-28
1x65x6

incline db flyes
3x45x15-25

side laterals
2x20x12-20
1x35x14

flat db press one set to failure slow mind muscle
1x45x32

rear delt flyes
2x20x20
1x35x15

flat db flyes
2x45x12-15

barbell shrugs
1x135x65 <<< i like my traps at light weight and high volume

chest press machine
1x310x4
1x250x6
1x190x12

rear delt cable flyes standing
3x30x15-20

chest shoulder day (yesterday)
Incline db press
1x40x35
1x60x18
1x70x15
1x90x4

standing shoulder press w/barbell
3x95x10-17

chest dips
3xbwx10-22

lateral raises
1x20x20
1x35x15

side lateral raises
2x35x15

flat db flyes
1x20x25
1x35x15
1x45x13

barbell shrugs
1x135x40
2x225x20-30

rear delt flyes
3x35x12-20
1x20x10

chest press machine
1x220x6
1x220x4

rear cable flyes
3x30x20-40

leg day
back squats
2x135x12 WU
3x225x12-30

one legged leg press
3x225x12-15
1x315x5

hamstring curls
1x90x20
1x160x20
1x170x15

seated calve raises
2x315x30
1x405x30
1x495x20

today i look much fuller than normal, skin looks paper thin and like im made of smooth lean mass lol. Oily skin (yup), acne on back (yup) estrogen (yup start aromisin saturday), aggression is way up, moods are good when they are good but when someone pisses me off ....... i snap and have to bite my tongue and calm myself lol. I feel like a God walking around at work my boss even said "shit your arms have doubled in size and your face and shoulders too" . I love it. New pictures next week, then every 4 weeks ill post another.

As far as gear goes, I love it. The quality is close if not even with alin and i have used so many sponsors all legit. So when i get a fake from a friend or family (brother) i can tell it is shitty asap. 4 weeks in and no gains etc etc. This is good shit

Arms today (have not done this combo since high school)
barbell curls
1x65x25
1x85x15
1x105x8
1x135x2 (good form no swaying rocking or elbows up) i have gifted power in arms
1x105x3

ss with barbells i did....
Single arm overhead tri extensions and then regular as it got heavy
singles
1x20x15
1x35x12
1x45x7
regular
1x65x25
1x85x17

hammer curls ss with skull crushers
1x40x10, 1x85x20
1x50x6, 1x105x12
1x65x4, 1x105x8

preacher curl machine ss with tri pushdowns
1x115x12, 1x150x16
1x115x10, 1x150x9 sssmmmoookeeeedddd!!!! and My PUMP is Painfully awesome
I love gear lol

Now i have a weak i mean weak chest and i am scared to ever push it from an old surgery repair. But being 30 years old and not caring about light boring weight i upped my dumbell presses up and flyes, so next week i only imagine the recovery will have me at even heavier weight but i wont go up. I do not want to tare anything and that is what happens when i up weight and its not necessary for optimal results. (powerlifting is not = bodybuilding) so i dgaf if i go heavy but i will up chest lifts. lol

flat db press
1x40x20 WU
1x50x15
1x65x12
1x75x8
1x85x6
1x95x3 (i usually hate going above 70) i prefer volume.

Incline db press
1x60x9
1x40x28 (slow and controlled flexing)

Incline flyes
1x20x15
1x35x15
1x45x12
1x45x10
1x45x4

parallel bar chest dips
3xbwx4-15

chest press machine
1x150x12
1x200x10
1x300x3

3 sets of pushups and i was toast

todays leg day
I do not go heavy on legs i worry more about volume to save my spine and knees in the long run. So here is my leg day

2x135x20WU
3x225x10-20 ATG

leg press
1x225x18
1x315x17
1x405x14
1x495x12

calves on leg press
1x225x35
1x315x25
1x405x18
1x495x10

hamstring curls
3x130x10-15
1x90x20

seated calves
1x310x12
3x410x10-20

SDS leg extension
1x190x10, 1x150x10, 1x110x7

Today i weigh....
Starting weight.... 168lbs
Today 183lbs dbol it does a body good

Also with todays lifts i pushed my tris to the limit!! I couldnt press 10lbs by the end of today lol

Arms and Calves

Barbell Curls
1x45x15 WU
1x65x15 WU
1x85x12
3x105x8-13

DB skull crushers
3x30x15

hammer curls
1x25x15
1x45x15
1x65x5

over head tri extensions with French bar
3x90x10-25

concentration curls
2x20x15

tri kick backs
2x15x10-15

preacher curl machine
3x85x5-12

one arm pushowns
1x40x6 speennnnttt

Also i would like to mention I so cardio and abs every day i just do not list that boring shiz

Thank you
Today was just wrestling drills so i got a full body workout and cardio all in one for three hours. I threw up three minutes into the first sprint session of the night. Diiiiiddd not stop me i had a surge of adrenaline come over me and i felt like a bad mofo.
I definitely was stronger. Not much but enough for me to nice i was throwing our 215 behemoth team captain over my hips over and over.
I look fuller. Feel like nailing every piece of tail i walk by. Way better moods lately even when at work lol.
eating non stop and cannot nourish my appetite

I was not much stronger yet which is not usually noticeable on chest until week two for me anyway.

My pump was pretty good today as well and very veiny

Chest and Back

Flat db press
1x40x20
1x50x15
1x60x12
1x70x10
1x70x7
I go very slow and flex the whole time because i have no desire to go heavy until the DBOL gets me stronger lol

Incline db press
3x40x15-30

incline db flyes
1x40x12
1x40x8

decline bench (only one set to cooldown)
1x135x15

Wide grip behind neck pullups
4xbwx8-19

lat pulldowns
3x150x12-15

vbar rows
1x130x12
2x200x15

seated row machine
4x200x10-20

leg day yesterday!
I went extremely light so i can walk at work today lol!

Legs

Back squats
3x135x10 WU
3x225x8-15 ATG

one legged leg press
3x185x10-12

calves raises on leg press
4x310x15-25

hamstring curls
3x90x25

yesterdays lifts
Shoulders/tris

Db shoulder press
1x20x20
1x35x15
1x55x12
1x65x10

side lateral raise
3x20x8-12

rear delt flyes
3x20x8-15

barbell shrugs
1x135x20
3x225x12

overhead single arm tri extension
1x15x15
1x20x15
1x40x6

rope pushdowns ss with rear cable flyes
4x150x10-12-------3x30x12-20

stats
5'10"
30yrs old
168lbs
low bf

diet intake
protein- 300-400 grams a day
carbs 500-700 grams a day
fats- I will not watch my fat intake

Wink day two
Back and bis

barbell curls
1x65x15
1x85x12
2x105x8

hammer curls
3x45x8-12

incline curls
3x20x12-15

vbar rows
4x300x12-20

wide grip front pullups
1xbwx12
1xbwx8
1xbwx3 toasted grip

db rows
2x90x12

ALSO UPDATE I have my arum rx dvds i am going to take pics if i can at this section. Also will prove his stuff is legit!!!

all my lifts up to now that i recorded are below here

i did my first weigh in today and first picture as well as my first lifts! No i have not pinned yet, but i still want to put my lifts in here before hand so when they increase everyone can see. (now please do not go bashing me on my lifts keep in mind i have cancer and i am trying my own methods to beat it) I will win!

Day one Chest/Tri/Abs
Incline DB press
20x25x1 WU
35x20x1 WU

50x10x1
65x8x1
1x75x3 never been so weak in my life

flat db flyes
15x12x3

laying db skull crushers
3x30x8-15

close grip pushups with no weight
3x20

random abs and cardio

This is just my day one back in the gym after almost 2 years. I will get stronger

picture of me in my prime

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before pic at 15 years old