So as some of you know I went through a break up with the girl I was going to ask to marry me and it crushed me. I've lost 15 pounds in three weeks from not eating, not working out, and barley drinking water. Thank God I wasn't where I live at school because I would have trashed 100ml's of some fire prop. She flipped my world upside down, I felt like a bad person for trying to work on physique and working out, which is my passion. I even considered sending viking a message asking him to ban me so I wouldn't think of cycling or working out. After its said and done, wether I'm with her or not, I'm bettering myself. She questioned my future, so now I'm going to start working on my masters to make sure I get a damn good job for myself and because I never want to one I love to question me again like that. Because of this I realize I have to get my head out of my ass and stop being fucking lazy and procrastinating (I might hit my tv with a hammer). I have never been more motivated to bust ass in everything I do. I'm am also going hard on achieving my goal of 210 6% next cycle (muscle memory is a beautiful thing).
Her jaw is going to drop when she see's me out and she won't even get a look from me. If she is so worried about what job I have I don't need her. I want a girl that is going to like me even if I want to be a bum. It pisses me off because I would have supported her no matter what she wanted to do.
Sorry for the rant just needed to vent.
I know this is an online community but you all on here have helped me out a lot in more that just learning about gear and mean a lot to me.
Special shout out to brambo for helping show me I can't let this girl make me feel the way she has.