Any of you gents suffer or suffered in the past from PTSD? If so, Id love to hear how you lads have dealt with it. Its a mo'fo'.

I survived a random unprovoked murder attempt and had ptsd without knowing anything about it, for years. I think i suffered it fir maybe somewhere between 15-18 years before getting to grips with it (very slowly) via therapy/meditation. Lots of the typical effects were there, nightmares, daymares, reliving the event on a daily/nightly basis. Anger, guilt, horrible depression. Then Hypervigilance to an extreme level where i couldnt walk down a path without literally having a mental note of every single persons location around and behind me (listening to footsteps and watching shadows.... the footsteps often being the last sound you hear before someone tries to smash your head in with a lump hammer from behind), whilst preparing constantly to meet an eventual attack with extreme violence.

In fact it was one of the violent responses to an 'attack' (a mere silly bullshit insult... wgaf) on my Mrs. where I took 2 feĺlas, in a group of 4, apart into bloody pieces in front of a crowded room. It doesnt take Einstein to realis that tearing a coke can in half and using it as a blade to subdue the attackers friends and warn them if they moved thir pals were getting carved up, so i could deal with them both the way i saw fit to handle any attacker ......... just made me the bad guy. I ended up becoming the bad guy... what the FKKKKK. How does that happen? I knew I was going to jail or getting killed eventually. Time to do something. Shortly after that, in therapy, I found out what was happening to me, how embedded it was and started on a path to deal with it. That path took years. Its almost sorted. At least i can walk to the shops with my kids without planning for the person walking towards us, 100 meters down the path, to try push us in front of a bus etc. Thats nice, compared to past times.

PTSD. Its a cunt.