I want to post a before pic so everyone can see where I am at and am hoping to get support here. Please be kind as this is a big step for me to take to ask for help. My pain in the butt husband GettingBig pushed me to join because he said I could get a lot of help from all the awesome members for training and diet advice to reach my goals.

My introduction won't save so I will include it here

Hello Everyone. I am new to Eroids and thought it best to post a pic right off the bat to show everyone my starting point.
https://www.eroids.com/pics/my-before-pic
I am a 41 yr old Female who has lost her way yet again. This has been a lifelong journey for me and it is very discouraging. My first real weight loss was when I was 25 when I followed the WW diet plan. I lost 65 pounds in a little over a year and was able to maintain that weight loss for a little over 2 yrs however found the weight creeping back resulting in many years of unsuccessful diet ventures. As soon as I would begin to see results which is usually around the 15 pound weight loss mark, I would feel better but then sabotage all the hard work I put in. In early 2015, I was so depressed, felt horrible and was so unhappy with the way I looked that I was considering going in a drastic direction by having gastro bypass surgery to find out that I was not overweight enough, which in all honesty, I am glad about now as it is better to learn good eating habits and doing it on your own because the pride you feel when you have accomplished your goals is so much more rewarding. With that said, in Aug 2015, I decided to join a weight loss center program which cost me $3K but thought this was an investment in my health and took the plunge. My hubby was not very happy when I came home and told him I was spending this much money and was buying all their products but I reassured him I was going to stick with it and do it. YES, I did reach my goal with a total weight loss of 60 pounds which I achieved in March 2016 and felt amazing. AND yes, I had a big HA HA I TOLD YOU SO moment when I reached it. I dropped three pant sizes and for the first time that I can remember, looked forward to bathing suit shopping. Life happened and we had to move for employment reasons resulting in my no longer having the weight loss centers team to help me as there were no locations in the area in which I now resided. So, here we are, 15 months later, 45 pounds heavier and 2 pant sizes bigger. I threw all my BIG clothes away and my pride was broken when I had to tell my hubby that he was right, and had to go to the store and buy new BIG clothes. I have learned through the last diet that me and carbohydrates don't like each other which is hard being an Italian. When I was at the center, they had me taking several different types of supplements in addition to protein powdered drinks, puddings and soups as well as protein bars. There were three different supplement pills I took over this journey; one contained hoodia grodonii, ginseng, green tea, theobromine, banaba, bioperine, vanadyl sulfate, and chromium, the second contained guarana, zhishin, nutmeg, ginkgo and ginseng and the third contained citrus aurantium, garcinia cambogia, caffeine, green tea, gugulipids, metrabomine, tryosine, chromium and platinum minerals. Were they worth $155 per bottle? I don't know. Or was it that they had me on a very low calorie diet? I don't know if they were a part of the success of the weight loss but what I do know is that I would like to do this just with diet and exercise without feeling like I am starving myself and eating nothing but bland chicken and fish. I want to be able to lose the weight and keep it off forever. I want to get stronger and gain my confidence back. I know this was a very long post but it is my initial step and want you to understand my journey and what my goals are. I am looking for the best practice and know that what may work for some may not work for all but I am willing to take any and all advice you can provide me with as you all seem to have had much success on your journeys and who better to ask. I have found that through both weight loss programs, the key to success is the support from others. I look forward to this journey with you and hope I don't disappoint you or myself again.