Last Monday I finished up my 14 rounds of radiotherapy from the past 3 weeks, this morning I had to undergo a Bronchoscopy to allow my doctors and surgeons to view my progress and for them to be able to view what was going on inside, today I finally got to see what my lung cancer tumor actually looks like.

After today's procedure, my doctor explained to me, after showing me the scan pics, that the radiotherapy has shrunk my tumor 32% from its original discovery size of 1.4 cms just 7 weeks ago. The tumor has shrunk enough for it to allow approx 65% of my air intake to enter into the one remaining lobe of my right lung which is therefore allowing me to be able to breath slightly better than I have been. Which is good.

I was already informed before my radiotherapy sessions started that the radiotherapy itself was an attempt to reduce any further growth of the tumor, which could/would bring further complications before my due removal surgery. It was explained to me that because the tumor is attached to the remaining upper portion of my bronchos from my previous surgery and is growing from the inside of my body, through the walls of my bronchos, the removal surgery would ultimately result in me losing the remaining upper lobe of my right lung also. If there's no air piping going to the remaining lobe, there's nothing for it to be attached to or to work with. So being told today that my surgery will still be going ahead on May 12th, didn't really come as a surprise, just more of a, "Aye Ho - Oh Well", kind of shrug of the shoulders moment that I was already expecting. Which, deep down, if I'm honest, still SUCKED to be told.

BUT AT LEAST I NOW KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON, WHAT THE LITTLE F-ER LOOKS LIKE AND WHY I'VE BEEN FEELING LIKE SUCH A BUCKET OF $HIT THESE PAST FEW MONTHS.

Which is good.

So to EVERYONE who has helped me along on my latest journey of what we all call life these past few weeks, with all of your supportive PM's and the uncountable numerous comments I have received in helping to cheer me up, I THANK YOU. From the bottom of my heart, I TRULY do thank you. Admittedly, I have been a right miserable ba$--d over this past week with everything and MY Baby Darling has put up with it all, even she has told me, "Just go on Eroids and go and have a laugh with your Mates on there. It always cheers you up when you do". Even she recognizes the help and support you have all given me.

As I've already said, my surgery is now set for May 12th, and for me, I'm just trying to look at it as just another walk in the park to getting back on my feet and back into the gym where I feel I'm alive as soon as I can.