Recent bloodwork shows as follows:

Age 37
Total T- 789
E2- 34.6
SHBG- 13.8
BF- 14-15%

Was experiencing lack of motivation and anhedonia prior to trt and in the gym at least 3x/ week

Been on cookie-cutter clinic dose of 200mg/wk once/wk. Starting at week 3-4 started taking var as pre-workout @ roughly 25mg/ session 3-4x a week for 2 weeks straight. Was getting mad anxiety and sleep issues at weeks 5-6 so stopped. At week 7 now and having heart palpations, bad anxiety, bad insomnia, low libido (which was through the roof weeks 2-4 and before"trt"). Prior to trt my total was 488, e2 at 12.7, SHBG 33 and felt fine even though my e2 to total ratio seems a bit distant. Could these sides be related to the var crashing my SHBG or the e2 being high/low sensitive in relation to total t? At a loss for if I need to take a small dose AI or do the opposite and boost my e2 via HCG? Does any of this seem reasonable or way out of wack? I've been all over Reddit and YouTube to no avail for me specifically. Thinking about lowering the t dose, knowing it's definitely above true trt dosing to see if that helps and splitting shots twice a week. Clinic said "oh your shbg is high normal, take some var" and followed suit so don't know if I f'ed myself for a few weeks or if it's estrogen sensitivity or a combo. Sorry for the long read.