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  • Edit My three years bodybuilding transformation (with some sad ending)

  • krutajan   •   Tue, Aug 11th, '20 06:07   •   32 replies, 964 views

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So it was almost 4 years ago exactly that i put down the drugs, alcohol, junk food and unhealthy lifestyle i was living and started to live kinda normal life... About a year later I really started to work on my bodybuilding journey. I was around 79kg in those beginings. Looking like i was ready to die lol.But I was serious from the day I started lifting. I spend literally all my time reading about training and nutrition. I didnt want to waste any time making mistakes. And I was very lucky to have gym partner who was already experienced enough to show me the way. And best of all he never once said anything about how fucking small and weak I was. All he would do was encourage me. So i got lucky i never wasted time doing bicep curls everyday like you see alot of new lifters doing. First picture was taken about two years ago, before my first steroid experience. The seccond picture was about 5 months ago - that was the best shape I've had probably. third picture was taken right at the end of my last cycle - three months ago a little over 104 relaxed, at home. So overall in my heaviest bulking phase I was 28kg heavier then i was 3 years ago. I believe decent ammount of its gotta be muscle...

The last picture is my current shape. And that's where the sad part begins. I was doing Trenbolone in my last cycle - not much but unfortunately I'm somehow really sensitive to its physical sides. I've became crazy, jealousy, paranoid and agressive. I was unable to concentrate to important things, no family, friends, work, cultural activites or anything. I was 107kg huge dude, strong as fuck, all time in the gym. And that's when my gf broke with me, moved to other place and I've almost lost my job. She told me she will come back if I'm able to get back in some mental comfort state and put everything to normal... Man I was a beast I was all time angry, everyone was affraid of me, including family.

So now, Its my third month sober, just finished eight week of PCT and I'm regularly visiting psychotherapist twice a week. I also got some antidepressants. I started doing box to get rid of the anger and stress and I started to do many adrenalline sports as I were used to before I started to only focus on getting bigger and stronger. I feel better now, even my girl started to date me again last week. I don't plan to jump back to AS anytime soon, I really feel like I need to heal myself both, mentaly and physically. And mainly, I'm not touching Trenbolone Acetate never ever, even in low dosages.

That's what I wanted to say - stay safe guys, I screwed up, don't make the same mistakes. You only have one health and there are more important things than to be the biggest guy in the gym.

P.S. I'm definitely going to put some weight back on in next months, or years, but this time I'm going to be much more careful.

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  • RSN34's picture
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  • RSN34
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You can achieve that Look naturally brother. Keep your head up thing will get better. + for Eroids card pic

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  • krutajan
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That's my current goal brother. I'll do my best. Thank you for the kind words and the motivation.

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  • BJ
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Ehhhhhhh

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  • Pounds23
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Man if I was u and I was gunna contuine I would stay away from tren totally u can have that physic without tren and feel amazing eat good and train hard and do just a simple test,primo,anavar or even a test,npp,tbol there's plenty of ways to get to where u want and be happy and look good nakit lol.... Get some bloods done see where ur levels are and ur markers first brother make sure ur health is good and work on ur mental health u seem better now, let everything clear u might need trt idk that'll be based on ur levels just to make u feel better and motivated ..... Once ur better then u can try alil primo or npp and anavar u can without a doubt ahcience that but first get healthy brother mentally and physically alot don't talk about the mental sides effects all of us bb deal with... They think we don't have feelings or emotions but we are probably more sensitive and in touch then alot of others.....

And don't be down on how u look now dude, u look better then most guy that are in the gym Ed okay.... My dad always told me healthy mind healthy body, and really even u don't ever wanna touch any of it again that's fine too maybe just trt is for u u built alot of muscle already so alil test u might respond amazing too.... Remember all this social media shit fucks with us all the guys we look up to with great physics take there pics in the best lighting there best shape where there lean and in training, when do u see them in just a regular pic in the off-season never or maybe when they have taken time off they loose it to some get chunky, weight going up and down is okay man it's being human it happens at the end of the day we all love seeing the transformations that we can make and where we started off at and where we end up at.... Things will get better as time passes it heals and makes things easier take this as a learning experience u know take away something from this even if it was bad.... Keep ur head up man motor on and it's never a weak thing to talk to people in my book it's weak not to talk to someone and keep all that negative shit in

  • krutajan's picture
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Thank you man, that's really nice and motivating from you. I appreciate that.

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5 reviews in one day. -2

I hope you get your head screwed on straight. You only get one trip on earth. Make it yours. Hope it's not already fucked

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I did tell you I’d give you the two points back on the other photo if you posted with a card.
The problem is you don’t look like that guy.

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Sam I am I down voted his ultima OXY review .... simply because he probably never tried to lower his dosage n with little to no experience with heavy orals it’s just not fair to other users to go off this one redivide that’s not even detailed .... I’m an anadrol lover I’d Admit to my usage of it I can go all the way up to 150mg in a day n never have these issues ... his reviews are faulty and not informative he should be banned

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Doesn’t sound like he’s making any friends, lol

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  • Molinin302
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Am I going to get any flak because I just negged 1 because I realized I can see the top of his labia in a couple of these pics? Oh yeah, and for calling shred a prick. Shred is a solid guy. Not prick. -1 dick root.

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  • Sosa123
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After reading your entire thread, I really hope you find the help you need... bodybuilding isn’t for some everyday average joe and this post should be used an awareness...stay away from the site n get ya mind right !...

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Bulking on orals instead of food fails every time. Your post cycle pic proves this.

Hope you find the help you need man, AAS are not for you.

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You just posted 5 reviews today. And your weepy story should be a forum post not a pic mass tagging sources. -1

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That’s a lot lol

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I realized that I owe reviews for the items that I've got as a promo and I don't wanted to be a debtor so I wrote them after I came to the eroids after months... I don't see any problem with that, do you....?

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Yes, I see a few problems.
You mass tagged sources for your weepy story post w/ pic. You posted 5 shitty reviews in one day. If they are reviews for promos then you were responsible for writing them at the proper time not 5 in one day months later. And you have a history of trying to be a karma whore by uploading pics.

You also have been called on your pic bullshit before too, and were given an out and offered back your karma if you posted a pic with an eroids card, you never posted it. It's as if your pics are stolen or something.
https://www.eroids.com/pics/off-cycle-conditioning-four-weeks-off

Things don't add up and you're messing up.

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Man, first I have no clue what eroids card is, otherwise I'd post that - that's what I've said already in the original post. Trying to be karma whore by uploading pics? I'm just not getting you at all.... What the hell is wrong about uploading progress pics from AS cycles? I thought that's what you use "submit a self picture" option for.... I just think that you're not okay, ruined my hard earned karma by giving me -7 for all my posts....

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You posted a selfie Jul 2nd, 2019 then another selfie 6 days later on Jul 8th, 2019 then another selfie 7 days later on Jul 15th, 2019...that's 3 selfies in 13 days. 3 selfies in less than 2 weeks man! And there's more.

You've been trying to game the system. You have been trying to be a karma whore by uploading pics.

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If you think so.... I still think that its more like your broken ego or some other complex making you act like a prick, because there's completely nothing wrong with this post that I've just wrote or any other of my posts, no matter what you say or think. I don't even know what karma whore means... And instead of explaining to me what for example eroids card is, to help me solve (your) problem, you just keeps pushing...

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Your first 5 selfie posts netted you +22 karma, where did that go?
Are all these other guys that called you on your bullshit or negged you pricks too? Am I the only prick here or is this place full of pricks and you're just a victim?
And an eroids cards is self explanatory, obliviously it's a selfie holding a card or piece or paper with "eroids" written on it. You sound like a crybaby lacking a sense of personal accountability.

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Okay, you can see that Eroid card right here in my post, I've added that as a last photo.

  • krutajan's picture
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Lol, that's the dumbest thing I've ever heard, you don't believe its me on photos? Want me to make that photo and we're fine? :D

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Yes, but only if you have a time machine to go back to April when you were called out and post the pic with the eroids card then.
Otherwise no, I don't want you further polluting this place with shitty reviews, excessively frequent selfies mass tagging sources and attempting to karma whore, or crybaby comments.

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Geez shred why you got to be such a prick?

Oh yeah because we have rules around here

FOR A REASON.

please continue in your prickery.

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It's constructive prickery.

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Bill - Quit being a PRICK!!!

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I dont know how

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You're prick, believe it or not.... I've told you that I had no clue what that eroid card is, before got it explained. You can notice that I've asked in April, under the post where I was asked for that - unfortunately got no explanation. And regarding mass taging sources - what's wrong about tagging all the sources I've ordered from, during my transformation that I'm describing in the post? Its still just you and your mental illness, no other issue was found here....

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It would definitely give you street cred, your karma is dropping faster than my sperm count on some really good sust...

  • krutajan's picture
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Oh wait, I just added that to this post