Just for Today: Through regular prayer and meditation, I will discover what emotional balance means to me.
I spent 90 minutes in a float tank on Tuesday to heal my body, Pray, and meditate. I can not say I have balance in my life. I can say I am a lot better at handling emotional challenges in my today.
I went to a meeting Tuesday night to celebrate a sponsee brother. My sponsor, best one in the whole world, gave my bro a 3 year medallion. They both carry a really strong message of experience, strength, and hope. Wednesday night I chair our sub-committee phone helpline for Saint Louis Mo area. We handled 200 calls in August. Thursday night, drove about 60 miles(100K)@way to attend another bro get his 4 year medallion=another great share. Both times, the meetings never mentioned the substances, just the disease and what Recovery is like. The man who had 3 years and the man who had 4 years both had a lot to be grateful for, especially careers, romance, and finances. Some people, like me, don't recover our financial success, never found a mate, but I have found a way to be happy, joyous, and free on little money by myself. My income is down in '22 and costs are dramatically higher. If inflation were only 10% I wouldn't even notice it. It is frustrating to me how few people in my life are unaware of how many lies, half truths, and failed to mention= USA media tells everyday.
My workouts are going in the right direction, some days I am stronger than others. Some days at like 30 minutes I lose my concentration and leave. Today, I am stuck at home waiting for a new refrigerator. The old one quit. It was only 3 years old, the new fridge cost ($950) 150% more than in '19($600) same store, same size, same brand plus no automatic ice maker. Good thing my credit score is healthy today thanks to perseverance and sobriety. It sucked this week not having a refrigerator. (delivery took 7 days) This USA economy sucks for me. I should cancel Thanksgiving weekend plans in Fort Lauderdale Fl. My finances and my health are my responsibility today. They were mine in active addiction too, I just didn't care. My HIV blood work is healthy too. Recovery life is better, just not better than last 5 years, important pieces of my life are moving in the wrong direction.
Thanks for reading this. Auto