The thread about methadone inspired me to tell a little story about me and my crazy ass life. I was born and raised in a city with an extremely high crime rate. It was always top 3 in the nation for murders and only had a population of 100,000. A year or two ago it was voted the most violent city in the country. The place I was born probably wouldn't have mattered though, I would have most likely became a drug addict/alcoholic regardless of my surroundings. That particular city just made it easier to get hard drugs at a younger age. Ok, so from age 12 I started getting high. Just weed and liquor at first then quickly moved up to lsd, coke and xtc. Around age 16 I started using xtc everyday for weeks on end. That was really the first drug I ever got strung out on, but not the last. I replaced it with prescription pain meds, vicodin, oxy, morphine, right up to the king, heroin. This is where shit got outta control for me. I was about 19. I was heavily into lifting in high school despite the drugs. Once I started fuckin with dope it was a rap, nothing else mattered. It got to the point where noone wanted me around anymore. I did whatever I had to to support my habit, lied cheated, stole, sikhs drugs, robbed people, and took advantage of every situation I thought would get me another fix. I got to where I WANTED to quit using, I just didnt kno how to live without it. Checked into my first rehab at about 20. Little did I kno there would be 6 more rehabs and 5 overdoses still to come.
In between each rehab I would get a few months clean and start getting back into bodybuilding. The feeling of lifting again and my muscles filling with blood was like a new and better high. It really helped me through tines when I wanted to go back out. Helped me to eat healthy, and live a healthier lifestyle. Helped build confidence and self esteem. I came to love it. I've been sober now for almost 8 months and am married with a daughter, own a house and a new truck. I truly believe I owe alot of that to body building. It kept me believing in myself when there wasnt a whole lot to believe in left. I have a new addiction now, its to the iron. Thanks eroids for letting me tell my story. Hope this helps someone who may be going through the same thing.